newyork:

squeeze!

My morning!

newyork:

squeeze!

My morning!

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Put party dress on, put party shoes on, zoom zoom zoom, eat!

It’s that time again, when people can’t help but wax a little poetic about the last 12 months (I’m no exception) and make resolutions for the next year (from which I abstain — for scientific reasons, sort of). I made new friends and lost touch with some others. I did some things I’m really proud of and some stuff I’m not so proud of. (I also did plenty of things I feel very neutral about, even though I have a sneaking suspicion that maybe I “should” feel not-proud of them.) There was a break-up in there, as well as a lot of laughter and late nights and big decisions and uncertainty and moments that felt like the best of my life.  

But just that — that sounds a lot like 2010 and 2009 and basically every year of my late teens and early 20s. This year, though… man. I got my Master’s degree. I spent Wednesday evenings all summer at long happy hours, re-discovering how great Chicago and my classmates could be. I turned 23 over a dinner of Thai food and a gift of tickets to see The Decemberists, who put on an excellent show. I spent seven months sleeping on an inflatable bed. I had my first real job interview and didn’t get laughed out of the editor-in-chief’s office (my definition of a success). I sent a text to a friend in New York along the lines of, “So I’m actually moving to NYC in a week. Can I ship all my shit to your apartment in a couple of days? I’ll be there right after.” I lived on her love seat for a week, which was the start of an exhilarating, crushing relationship with the city, one that is more complex and fulfilling than any I’ve ever had with a human being. I saw my bank account dip lower than it’s been since I was 13. I accepted an internship with my favorite magazine, and shook my head in disbelief every morning I swiped into the building. I took another internship with a company that intimidated me — so much technology! — but I’m going back full-time starting in 2012. I spent a week eating, drinking, and enjoying the unbelievable March warmth of New Orleans with friends. I think I cried more than I did in 2010 (which wasn’t hard, since I only cried two or three times last year), but nothing that brought me to tears was upsetting or memorable even a week later. I spent Sundays all spring playing on a softball team with my friends (and then eating pizza and drinking beer at a nearby bar). I went to Lollapalooza in August, and danced my ass off a Girl Talk concert in March. I ate a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. I saw my parents for 18 days between January and November, but am somehow closer to them now than I think I’ve ever been. I bought a piece of furniture for the first time. I ate Thanksgiving dinner next to the dance critic for the New York Times. I worked hard on my final project in grad school, and was so tired after it that I couldn’t stand straight when I finally got to Maine to visit my family. I (sort of/finally) learned to ride a bike. I survived one of the biggest storms Chicago has seen in 50 years and spent my snow day stomping around Northwestern’s blanketed campus. 

TL;DR — 2011 & I got along well, and I’m hoping I’ll be able to say the same for 2012.

cheers to the early-to-mid 20s.

In the middle of October, I turned 29—and noticed a change in people’s eyes when I talked to them about future plans. When you talk about your dreams at 24, people feed on your excitement and gush support. At 29, furrowed eyebrows and hesitancy accompany conversations of this nature, like Age 30 is a window slamming down on your neck as you’re trying to snatch the pie cooling on the sill.

— Susannah Young, in her Unbest entry

I’ve been feeling a little nervous about my impending birthday — 24, in less than two weeks — for no good reason. I don’t like that I’m about to settle into my mid-20s and don’t have things entirely figured out. But this reminds me that being this age (in New York, no less, where I’m working on building a life) is actually a luxury. 

I wouldn’t want to try to decipher my notebook right now.

A sampling from a page I’m scribbling on currently:

  • Man’s TGiving Schedule
  • #sexysteaknight
  • uses an AI tech. platform to turn data into stories
  • METAS!
  • start @ p. 28
  • ows
  • fallfashion11
  • 2 BUY 3 HOLD (2.60) - BOBE 
  • (2.57 - CBRL)
  • 11:00 14th floor
  • fallinlove
  • Margot & the Nuclear So-and-So’s
[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]  

I am so, SO excited that I found this song. After living in Hawaii, my dad got really into Hawaiian music, although he only ever played it for special occasions or when my parents had friends over for dinner (I suppose it was just distinctive enough and just relaxing enough to be appropriate). Hearing it reminds me of my childhood, whether actually in Hawaii or just having events soundtracked by Hawaiian music. It’s just so relaxing.

Thursday night

I did not go to the Chuck Klosterman reading.

I was at a bar hanging out with the St. Pauli Girl instead.

I’m excited for you. You’re young, you seem pretty put-together…uhh, you have coffee on your nose.